God's Love

it is amazing how God works through each and every one of us and in truly mysterious ways.

recently I joined a facebook group for catholic mamas and it has been such a blessing. not being from this town and not having had any real opportunity to make friends, it has been hard for me this past year. having found this group of strong faith filled women, in whom I find so much in common, has helped me tremendously. having found sisters in Christ that I can talk to and ask for advice or simply vent my stresses to, has become the greatest gift. 

though they are scattered all over, this group of women has already helped me in such a great way. 

through prayer. 

prayer is such a great tool. one that will help you get through whatever difficulties and challenges your life throws at you. 

no it is not a magic wand, and often times your prayers are not answered, yet the peace you receive from the praying act can often times be enough to help. 

currently I have felt that peace to be ever so present. I have been praying for quite some time for a special intention. EM has been very stressed and through prayer, though the situation is not fully remedied, I have seen a positive change. God is good and never wants to see His children stumble. even if you have to learn to crawl before you can run. 

life truly is a roller coaster. whether a scary one with a lot of loops or a gradual one with many ups and downs, it is a ride to enjoy. the loops and downs are not always the greatest but they make us who we are. and though we are currently in a loop I'm loving the good times from within. 

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on a side note: we are still camping out in the living room. the workers should be coming back today, and hopefully EM will be able to be here when they arrive. a bunch of strange men walking around (though they seemed nice), while I try to take care of S makes me a bit anxious. 

like our set up? I think S was looking at angels. he always starts to smile when he looks up at the skylights. :) mama's sweet sweet boy.

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Crazy Wonderful Time

i cant believe how many wonderful things have happened since my last post.

realizing it has been quite a while, there is a lot to announce. most importantly we welcomed our son Sebastian Michael! a perfect 10 lb 2 oz, 22 inches long!

we could not be more excited and blessed to have this baby! he is truly wonderful. check out little ones to see more photos :)

his birth story is a lengthy one. towards the end of my pregnancy my heart rate started getting higher than it should be and the cardiologist, though finding nothing wrong, suggested that the only way to have my heart rate regulate was to deliver. i was 39 weeks and very much ready. my dr suggested scheduling an induction at 40 weeks in case i did not go into labor on my own prior. 

well 40 weeks came and we decided to try a membrane sweep first...crossing our fingers for it to work. that same day we were able to see him one last time before his being born and the dr said he was around 9 lbs...give or take 2lb.

we returned home and waited two days to see if the MS would kick start my labor. unfortunately it didnt. the induction was scheduled for the following tuesday. that friday i get a call from my dr saying i had to come in for a non stress test because i was carrying extra amniotic fluid.

after an hour of being hooked up to a fetal heart monitor my dr decided that S wasnt reacting the way she wouldve liked to have seen and sent us over to L&D for further monitoring. turns out that further monitoring turned into being admitted and induced that evening. 

it was quite a whirlwind and 31 hours later on the 31st we welcomed our not so little peanut.

we are so in love! and so blessed with an amazing baby. he sleeps the majority of the night already and hes only 3 weeks old. he's not a crier and from day one has held his own head up...he's super strong! not that im bragging...ok im one proud mama! 

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A Letter to My Baby

God is SO good! the closer and closer i get to meeting S the more emotional i become. if you had asked me a year or two ago where i would be now i would certainly never imagine that i would be where i am today...expecting my first baby. a perfect baby boy.
i cant even begin to describe the emotion i feel when i think about him. even now as he kicks my ribs :) i had always imagined that i would have a little girl first then a bunch of boys...but they say if you want to tell God a joke, tell Him your plans. how true. i could not be happier than i am this day knowing that soon i will get to meet my son. the amount of love i have for him already is indescribable. just the thought brings me to tears.
i cannot wait to hold his tiny body in my arms. though i will miss having him within me. something so incredibly special that any mom understands. i felt him move before anyone else could.


sebastian,

my sweet little boy. you are so dearly and purely loved. your daddy and i couldnt have asked for a greater blessing. he always tells you good night and kisses my belly, telling me how much he loves you and how he cant wait to meet you. you have taken a man who was afraid of not being ready to be a dad, to someone who cannot wait to hold you and that smiles at the thought of you. that is the greatest gift you could ever give him. because of you we have become an even stronger family. you are so small yet what you have already accomplished is so great.
we are close to a month away from your birth and we practice every night for that wonderful event. i know it will be one of the toughest days of my life, with the most amazing of outcomes. we get to bring you, our son into the world. i just pray that your daddy will be there, for it's something i truly dont want him to miss. he always tells me how great i will be, even if he cant be there...but i know it would kill him if he couldnt see you make your first appearance into this great big world.
we have loved you from the minute we knew you were in our lives and that is something that will never change! that love will only get deeper and deeper. you are so blessed to have such an amazing man as your daddy. he is already so protective of you, touching my belly ever so gently, never wanting to do anything that could remotely hurt you. the day we were able to see your little face was such a wonderful day! you were already so handsome! and your daddy had a grin from ear to ear seeing his little boy.
you are our heart. and we are so blessed to have you.

love you forever and always,

your mama

29 weeks our last echo-cardiogram 

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